I made my mistake or i’d forced to made mistakes?? i don’t even know by who?? who dares??
Did i’m guilty after this?? after that??
What i’m supposed to do and to be?? I’m Confused,,, I can’t even recognize who am i? Am i an ANGEL or more fit if i’m being a DEVIL?? i feel like i’m sometimes in between… I’m a kind person but in other way i’m just being so mean so Cruel, the cruelest person i’ve ever know.. and it’s not cool to found your self in the bad side like that,,,
I am Hurt and also Hurting in same time, same plaCe,, what is this?? am i Insane?? am i Nuts?? Is this normal for 19 years old not a girl not yet a woman like me??
I felt Cold inside and boiled immediately,,
I just wannabe an ordinnary girl, i hate to be like this,, not perfect person, half nice, half annoying, evil inside, good inside,,, who the hell am i?? I’m alone in my own way, see,,, nobody’s care about my present in this earth.. I’m completely Alone…
Everybody’s pretending like i’m not supposed to be here,, in this planet. they staring at me wishing i’m gone forever and ever… They judged me,, insist me to felt Guilty all this time,, for all my life.. they think i’m a weird girl who decided to kill her self after the whole people in world hating her,,, am i really weird like they said?? Yes right if i cry like a baby if i don’t get my way,, and i wont appologize when i make a mistake.. but i’m normal,, i swear,, i’m a normal,,, not an abnormal,, this is unbelieveable….
it’s not what i want actually,,, i wish they’re all dissapears inside the blackhole [they,,, peoples who considered me go Mad] and leave me somebody who loves me, trully loves me,,, hopefully,,,,
it’s ok to found people take me as an angel or a devil,,,
i don’t really care at all,,,
B’coz it means i’m Special,,,
